Wonder
In order to keep the title of this page short, I call my life a “wonder.” Many are the reasons for doing so. But, the first is that I survived Vietnam. I got through two combat tours for two reasons: One-I joined the Navy as I wasn’t doing well in college. That had to wait until I came home from combat with a new vision of what life is about. Two-that I was injured but not badly enough to call the Navy quits. Instead, I toughed it out with a lumbar spine injury that should have put me in the hospital. Instead, I stayed with my duties grimacing all the way. As you know, that was a long time ago yet I still grimace to this day.
Having lived when so many did not left me searching, sad, and a bit defiant of war and the reasons for war. There was a stage of my life when I rebelled against all things nationalistic. This period I called my re-calibration of life. In the end, war just is. The reasons for killing one another all stink and war is more of a giving in to stress than a need to kill. There is no need to kill unless some other is killing. The circle of death.
Long after all of that turmoil the internet came to be. As my job in the Navy was technical I had the advantage of already possessing the mindset of working with the technical. Working with servers is second nature for me. After I put up my first website in the early 2000s I realized that I needed to combine the technical with staying in shape. A sloppy body doesn’t help learning so I began a walking regimen that I maintain to this day. Only a few miles at a fast clip, maybe three or four but it suffices to allow me to think with no distractions, such as TV, and to pray when I feel the need. A need to iron out my actions with my spiritual pursuits.
Long before any of the above started I was a student of the bible. Not a great student but I read the bible cover to cover from age twelve to age fifteen. This with all the school work and growing up with all that growth entails. Girls, sports, etc. What this got for me was a stability and moralistic growth pattern. Of course I fell out of grace, we all do at one time or other. The trick is to not allow it to get out of hand and return to the path one was on before. Forgiveness is a mainstay of God for all of us. Never allow yourself to maintain anything that is not moral more than once. You know when you’re doing wrong don’t you? So does God, but He allows this if you call yourself up short for doing so.
As you can see, this is a mixed bag of a website. My philosophy of life is one word: circumstance. We don’t know what is coming next so best to maintain a clear outlook that includes love of our fellow man. Difficult as it is, loving your neighbor leaves a clear conscience and a clear conscience allows the joy of life, little as that joy is in these times it is better than feeling of guilt which oft times sour a person to commit even more transgressions. Life should be a simple as you can make it. The more complex the more circumstance and that is not often realized. Circumstance can kill or help one grow and mature. Maturity is not circumstantial, it is a result of loving yourself in the way of God. Simple? Not really but, as with all endeavors, it takes practice. Now is a great time to start, to change, to reconcile.
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